3年了
还有两个星期,我的大学生活就这样的结束了....
回想起这3年,包括进大学前的3个月....
我做了很多决定.....
可是,其实似乎是在很无知以及任性的情况下的决定....
第一: 就是决定进NUS,当时,我连看都不看就决定要进NUS了....
这个决定,我到现在都觉得很庆幸,如果没有当时的任性,我不会认识KK
他是我这辈子遇过最好的男人,也将会是我以后的归属.. 我相信
第二:就是决定读chemistry咯....这也是对的,因为我的兴趣就是chemistry....
第三:就是在hall里那么的anti-social...haiz
我的任性,导致一年浑浑噩噩的生活在hall里,朋友也没有认识几个
英文还是一样的烂....
第四:就是决定要进pure chem,其实对于这个我有点后悔
当时,觉得不喜欢较于偏engineering的applied chem.....
结果,任性的,无知的,随便的..就这样进了pure chem.....
现在,文耀他们也和我们拿很多一样的科目,其实,根本就是一样的嘛!!!!!
第五：就是不要跟ＫＫ去WAT,haiz....
回想之前,我也不知道自己在想些什么.....如果我有去,至少有一个3个月的假期是充实的...
第六: 就是突然的决定想去SEP,然后搞了三个月,又withdraw....
没人能了解当时我交withdraw letter的心情
我拿着信,在office外徘徊....交出了信,我真的真的很难过...毕竟三个月的计划,就这样的泡汤了...
三个月的期望,就这样没了...也许以后我都不会有那个到美国的机会了......
当时,走到楼梯间,我的眼泪就这样掉了下来....
第七:就是继续浑浑噩噩的过三个月假期...
以前,我不觉得intern很重要,urops很重要....
在加上,懒字当头,假期只想要玩,只想要休息.....
所以,现在的resume,空的就想白纸一样....
第八:就是honours这件事了....
其实到现在,我的心还是很摇晃~尤其在发现申请工作是多么困难的一件事后....
我更加的摇晃....我只能尽量的让自己坚持,坚持这自己做了的决定....
当然,还有许多杂七杂八的小事,
房子啊,旅行啊...一大堆的事....
有时候,很懊恼自己总是那么的没有计划...
我的人生,除了以后的梦想,从来都是没有计划的...
有时候,看着新加坡的coursemates,虽然跟他们不大熟,但他们对于自己的人生充满了planning
如果,决定要去sep,早早的便拿这个科目那个科目的....
从来不会让自己陷入我的那种情况....
haiz...好了
我想我要回去读书了....
毕竟,成绩是我的resume上,最闪闪发亮的一行字了.....
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
/pray
two posts in one day ya ..... am i too free ?
nope, now I am in the critical period, which may also be the last exam period in my life ..
the study week in NUS can seriously be treated as no-life week....
every morning, i pack all my luggage, blanket, sweater, socks n lecture notes to the study room near my hostel
try to occupy a seat near a power plug, so that i still can online while mugging
feel superb cold when i am studying here . that's why i am bringing my blanket
flash back to the life when i was in year 1 and 2...
you said I am too over for bringing blanket to the library
But, after a while, you also had to admit that .. it's really useful ~~~~~
haiz.. now i am only at the study room alone .. that's such a pity ~
during this "last" mugging period ... I could not settle down my mind to concentrate on the notes
keep thinking on my decision ...
keep thinking on my jobs ~
on my future
on my house .....
that's so many things have to be worried during this period ....
if i could not secure a job in the next few months,
how
if i could not find a good unit,
how ~~~~
HOW HOW HOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nope, now I am in the critical period, which may also be the last exam period in my life ..
the study week in NUS can seriously be treated as no-life week....
every morning, i pack all my luggage, blanket, sweater, socks n lecture notes to the study room near my hostel
try to occupy a seat near a power plug, so that i still can online while mugging
feel superb cold when i am studying here . that's why i am bringing my blanket
flash back to the life when i was in year 1 and 2...
you said I am too over for bringing blanket to the library
But, after a while, you also had to admit that .. it's really useful ~~~~~
haiz.. now i am only at the study room alone .. that's such a pity ~
during this "last" mugging period ... I could not settle down my mind to concentrate on the notes
keep thinking on my decision ...
keep thinking on my jobs ~
on my future
on my house .....
that's so many things have to be worried during this period ....
if i could not secure a job in the next few months,
how
if i could not find a good unit,
how ~~~~
HOW HOW HOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
@@
everything is not smooth
i said i wish to go back to study ...
but u said cannot ....
erm, can't u just pamper me a little bit more ?
i said i wish to go back to study ...
but u said cannot ....
erm, can't u just pamper me a little bit more ?
Monday, April 19, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
share ~ eason chan 爱情转移
two versions sung by eason chan, a-mei
both are very nice ....
both are very nice ....
徘徊过多少橱窗 住过多少旅馆
才会觉得分离也并不冤枉
感情是用来浏览 还是用来珍藏
好让日子天天都过的难忘
熬过了多久患难 湿了多少眼眶
才能知道伤感是爱的遗产
流浪几张双人床 换过几次信仰
才让戒指义无反顾的交换
把一个人的温暖 转移到另一个的胸膛
让上次犯的错反省出梦想
每个人都是这样 享受过提心吊胆
才拒绝做爱情待罪的羔羊
回忆是抓不到的月光握紧就变黑暗
等虚假的背影消失于晴朗
阳光在身上流转 等所有业障被原谅
爱情不停站 想开往地老天荒 需要多勇敢
烛光照亮了晚餐 照不出个答案
恋爱不是温馨的请客吃饭
床单上铺满花瓣 拥抱让它成长
太拥挤就开到了别的土壤
感情需要人接班 接近换来期望
期望带来失望的恶性循环
短暂的总是浪漫 漫长总会不满
烧完美好青春换一个老伴
把一个人的温暖 转移到另一个的胸膛
让上次犯的错反省出梦想
每个人都是这样 享受过提心吊胆
才拒绝做爱情待罪的羔羊
回忆是抓不到的月光握紧就变黑暗
等虚假的背影消失于晴朗
阳光在身上流转 等所有业障被原谅
爱情不停站 想开往地老天荒 需要多勇敢
把一个人的温暖 转移到另一个的胸膛
让上次犯的错反省出梦想
每个人都是这样 享受过提心吊胆
才拒绝做爱情待罪的羔羊
回忆是抓不到的月光握紧就变黑暗
等虚假的背影消失于晴朗
阳光在身上流转 等所有业障被原谅
爱情不停站 想开往地老天荒 需要多勇敢
你不要失望 荡气回肠是为了
最美的平凡
Friday, April 2, 2010
crazily busy ending in NUS
have been crazily
unbelivable
superb
BUSY
during there past two weeks
project, report, presentation, another project, report presentation
read through 10~20 journals for the reports ...
I have found that it's a correct and smart choice to choose not to continue
I spent super long time to study the journalsssssss......
why did scientist love to use long long long sentences to describe sth simple ???
I cannot see where the full stop ... ahhhhh
have to read a few times in order to truly understand the meanings ...
haha ....
hence, I will most probably end my study life in NUS with a hectic and meaningful life .....
hope i can stay steadily and happily through this period
hope i can secure a job offer asap
graduation trip ... nice and happy ....
HOPE .. PRAY
unbelivable
superb
BUSY
during there past two weeks
project, report, presentation, another project, report presentation
read through 10~20 journals for the reports ...
I have found that it's a correct and smart choice to choose not to continue
I spent super long time to study the journalsssssss......
why did scientist love to use long long long sentences to describe sth simple ???
I cannot see where the full stop ... ahhhhh
have to read a few times in order to truly understand the meanings ...
haha ....
hence, I will most probably end my study life in NUS with a hectic and meaningful life .....
hope i can stay steadily and happily through this period
hope i can secure a job offer asap
graduation trip ... nice and happy ....
HOPE .. PRAY
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