the drama I so much enjoy in .. =)

speechless

Do not ever think that you will be lucky to work in a place which is free from office politics..

The best way to survive is just to keep your mouth close and work your things properly..

Do not ever to think that people will appreciate you for doing extra things...

YES !! I am talking/shouting loudly to myself...

new journey in my life

Hi, everyone

So sorry for abandoning this blog for almost 6 months.

I have started my working journey on 19 July 2010 in Health Sciences Authority....

The working environment is good and colleagues are very friendly as well ....

Nothing much to comment / complain about my current life ..

As it's quite lifeless and boring ...

I will start my day at 6am every morning,

breakfast --> walk to Mrt station --> take 40 minutes Mrt to the working place

lunch (nowadays, I normally lunch in @@) --> go home at 5.30pm

cook our own dinner --> browse website /facebook --> study journals from my boss etc

at last, try to go to bed by 11am ...

simple and boring life, isn't it ...

I am not complaining about this current life ..

just that I decide to live in this way and so I cannot complain anything as well ...

If you ask me, do I change my mind or change myself to a different person,

I will answer you, YES

I am trying to be quieter and more mature ....

politics occur in any place, so at my lab as well ..

so that, to avoid myself to be in the problems, I think that, keep away from those "problems" is the best way..

I am trying very very hard

as you all know that I am such a talkative person ..

Besides that, after starting to earn money, I become more thrifty also ...

just realized that money is very very very important in the life ....

a very meaningful sentence to share with you allll .....

雖然錢不是萬能的,但沒有錢是萬萬不能!!!!

emo-ing

have been slacking all the time at home for quite some days ..

do not really feel happy with the life nowadays...

but, what can i do ..

i cannot clarify myself i have been working very hard to looking for jobs...

from when i started to send out resumes, i guess i have already sent out more than 100 resumes to all those chemistry companies...

but the super low response rate has made me very disappointing...

even though i have been asked to attend three interviews before, there was only 1 company "really" interviewed me

why to say like this

as the hr manager in the second company told us she was really busy and so she could not interview me after i have waited over there for 1 hour ..

however, after that, there was no reply or news from them again even though i have emailed to ask ... how can they be like this

they have wasted my whole day as i have to purposely travel to singapore just for that interview

i believe that there will be gain if i do not work hard ...

but, how can they treat me like this .. @@

for the third company, it's a food-related company,

however, few days ago, i received a cancellation of interview from them again

as the position i applied has already been occupied .. erm

maybe they found the right one on the first batch of candidates

how unlucky i am ....


the failures and obstacles i met in the job-hunting journey is not the real reason to make me emo all the time ....

it's so sien and discouraging to see the one close to you or all of your friends are busying

while myself is so free, nothing pending ahead

this makes myself even more anti-social

not really willing to travel to singapore for the harmonica practices

haiz

i really admire and respect how much our alumni have contributed to harmonica

but i do think that i am not as great as them ~ and i am really not that talented ....

sigh

what an emo rainy day

回想

3年了

还有两个星期,我的大学生活就这样的结束了....

回想起这3年,包括进大学前的3个月....

我做了很多决定.....

可是,其实似乎是在很无知以及任性的情况下的决定....

第一: 就是决定进NUS,当时,我连看都不看就决定要进NUS了....
这个决定,我到现在都觉得很庆幸,如果没有当时的任性,我不会认识KK
他是我这辈子遇过最好的男人,也将会是我以后的归属.. 我相信

第二:就是决定读chemistry咯....这也是对的,因为我的兴趣就是chemistry....

第三:就是在hall里那么的anti-social...haiz
我的任性,导致一年浑浑噩噩的生活在hall里,朋友也没有认识几个
英文还是一样的烂....

第四:就是决定要进pure chem,其实对于这个我有点后悔
 当时,觉得不喜欢较于偏engineering的applied chem.....
结果,任性的,无知的,随便的..就这样进了pure chem.....
现在,文耀他们也和我们拿很多一样的科目,其实,根本就是一样的嘛!!!!!

第五：就是不要跟ＫＫ去WAT,haiz....
回想之前,我也不知道自己在想些什么.....如果我有去,至少有一个3个月的假期是充实的...

第六: 就是突然的决定想去SEP,然后搞了三个月,又withdraw....
没人能了解当时我交withdraw letter的心情
我拿着信,在office外徘徊....交出了信,我真的真的很难过...毕竟三个月的计划,就这样的泡汤了...
 三个月的期望,就这样没了...也许以后我都不会有那个到美国的机会了......
当时,走到楼梯间,我的眼泪就这样掉了下来....

第七:就是继续浑浑噩噩的过三个月假期...
以前,我不觉得intern很重要,urops很重要....
在加上,懒字当头,假期只想要玩,只想要休息.....
所以,现在的resume,空的就想白纸一样....

第八:就是honours这件事了....
其实到现在,我的心还是很摇晃~尤其在发现申请工作是多么困难的一件事后....
我更加的摇晃....我只能尽量的让自己坚持,坚持这自己做了的决定....

当然,还有许多杂七杂八的小事,

房子啊,旅行啊...一大堆的事....

有时候,很懊恼自己总是那么的没有计划...

我的人生,除了以后的梦想,从来都是没有计划的...

有时候,看着新加坡的coursemates,虽然跟他们不大熟,但他们对于自己的人生充满了planning

如果,决定要去sep,早早的便拿这个科目那个科目的....

从来不会让自己陷入我的那种情况....

haiz...好了

我想我要回去读书了....

毕竟,成绩是我的resume上,最闪闪发亮的一行字了.....

/pray

two posts in one day ya ..... am i too free ?

nope, now I am in the critical period, which may also be the last exam period in my life ..

the study week in NUS can seriously be treated as no-life week....

every morning, i pack all my luggage, blanket, sweater, socks n lecture notes to the study room near my hostel

try to occupy a seat near a power plug, so that i still can online while mugging

feel superb cold when i am studying here . that's why i am bringing my blanket

flash back to the life when i was in year 1 and 2...

you said I am too over for bringing blanket to the library

But, after a while, you also had to admit that .. it's really useful ~~~~~

haiz.. now i am only at the study room alone .. that's such a pity ~

during this "last" mugging period ... I could not settle down my mind to concentrate on the notes

keep thinking on my decision ...

keep thinking on my jobs ~

on my future

on my house .....

that's so many things have to be worried during this period ....

if i could not secure a job in the next few months,

how

if i could not find a good unit,

how ~~~~


HOW HOW HOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

@@

everything is not smooth

i said i wish to go back to study ...

but u said cannot ....

erm, can't u just pamper me a little bit more ?

speechless

do not know how to express my feeling at this moment

share ~ eason chan 爱情转移

two versions sung by eason chan, a-mei

both are very nice ....

徘徊过多少橱窗 住过多少旅馆

才会觉得分离也并不冤枉

感情是用来浏览 还是用来珍藏

好让日子天天都过的难忘

熬过了多久患难 湿了多少眼眶

才能知道伤感是爱的遗产

流浪几张双人床 换过几次信仰

才让戒指义无反顾的交换

把一个人的温暖 转移到另一个的胸膛

让上次犯的错反省出梦想

每个人都是这样 享受过提心吊胆

才拒绝做爱情待罪的羔羊

回忆是抓不到的月光握紧就变黑暗

等虚假的背影消失于晴朗

阳光在身上流转 等所有业障被原谅

爱情不停站 想开往地老天荒 需要多勇敢

烛光照亮了晚餐 照不出个答案

恋爱不是温馨的请客吃饭

床单上铺满花瓣 拥抱让它成长

太拥挤就开到了别的土壤

感情需要人接班 接近换来期望

期望带来失望的恶性循环

短暂的总是浪漫 漫长总会不满

烧完美好青春换一个老伴

把一个人的温暖 转移到另一个的胸膛

让上次犯的错反省出梦想

每个人都是这样 享受过提心吊胆

才拒绝做爱情待罪的羔羊

回忆是抓不到的月光握紧就变黑暗

等虚假的背影消失于晴朗

阳光在身上流转 等所有业障被原谅

爱情不停站 想开往地老天荒 需要多勇敢

把一个人的温暖 转移到另一个的胸膛

让上次犯的错反省出梦想

每个人都是这样 享受过提心吊胆

才拒绝做爱情待罪的羔羊

回忆是抓不到的月光握紧就变黑暗

等虚假的背影消失于晴朗

阳光在身上流转 等所有业障被原谅

爱情不停站 想开往地老天荒 需要多勇敢

你不要失望 荡气回肠是为了

最美的平凡

crazily busy ending in NUS

have been crazily

unbelivable

superb

BUSY

during there past two weeks

project, report, presentation, another project, report presentation

read through 10~20 journals for the reports ...

I have found that it's a correct and smart choice to choose not to continue

I spent super long time to study the journalsssssss......

why did scientist love to use long long long sentences to describe sth simple ???

I cannot see where the full stop ... ahhhhh

have to read a few times in order to truly understand the meanings ...

haha ....

hence, I will most probably end my study life in NUS with a hectic and meaningful life .....

hope i can stay steadily and happily through this period

hope i can secure a job offer asap

graduation trip ... nice and happy ....

HOPE .. PRAY

To you ....

看时光飞逝 我祈祷明天
每个小小梦想能够慢慢实现
我是如此平凡却又如此幸运
我要说声谢谢你 在我生命中的每一天

看时光飞逝 我回首从前
曾经是莽撞少年 曾经度日如年
我是如此平凡却又如此幸运
我要说声谢谢你 在我生命中的每一天

让我将生命中最闪亮的那一段与你分享
让我用生命中最嘹亮的歌声来陪伴你
让我将心中最温柔的部分给你
在你最需要朋友的时候

让我真心真意对你在每一天
让我真心真意对你在每一天

share ... [ once too young ]

fall in love with this song

it is so nice and I am sure that the drama is very attracting and nice too.

got to find some time and watch it ....

I am heading to a 22-year-old life ....

life really flies and I hardly imagine what my life will be after I graduate from NUS

three years is really quite a long period ... But i could not sense it ....

It is still very fresh in my mind that how was i when i first started my uni life here .....

I still remember my life in Sheares ....

I still remember my commitment towards HO

I still remember the moment I know my first sem exam result ....

everything is still so fresh .....

But, now I am graduating soon ....

What did I really learn in these 3 years ... ?

I am not sure too .. sigh ...

"曾經太年輕  作詞/方文山　作曲/黃韻玲　歌手/藍又時

窗外風鈴一直不安靜　風在搖晃不安的宿命
我聆聽　你回憶經過的聲音

開始旅行寂寞很清醒　我在靠近過去的邊境
有些　戀人只是　路過時的風景

曾經太過年輕　卻絕對真心
我給的愛始終任性　不懂花開只一次的愛情

曾經太過年輕　淚純真透明
你的堅定　我仍然還　相信

開始旅行寂寞很清醒　我在靠近過去的邊境
有些　戀人只是　路過時的風景

曾經太過年輕　卻絕對真心
我給的愛始終任性　不懂花開只一次的愛情

曾經太過年輕　淚純真透明
你的堅定　我仍然還　相信

直到如今你說愛我的那封信
我一直都收藏著　摺疊用心　讓誓言乾淨

曾經太過年輕　在人海飄零
那些關於我的事情　總有你緊緊跟隨的身影

曾經太過年輕　淚純真　透明
你的堅定　我仍然還　相信"

another update

sort of making the decision finally ...

hope I will be really determined this time !!!!

and hope that I can find a job soon

my expectation is not that high ..

so, please hire me ...

i am a very hardworking worker !!!!!!!!

haha.....

2 more months to go ......

honours ?

have already decided to pursue my honours after this semester last semester

but,

now seems that, i am more keen on graduating in this semester ?

just check the information and conversion can be done after the result is released

i have not discussed with my parents ...

have no idea what they will suggest about my this thought ...

if i am graduating i n this semester, there will be only 2 months left to the end of my student life ...

omg !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i m so failure

so OFF.. off and end's up being the last to know again

do not like this kind of feeling

BUT

what can I do?

It is my fault...

i love study ~

70/100

get 28 correct out of 40 questions ...

online quiz stressed me to the maximum

so lazy recently,

feel lucky there is an online quiz to force me start revising ~~~

although din do well in it

luckily i have really started to concentrate more on revision....

I LOVE STUDY !!!!!!!!!!!! @@

lost

feel really lost with my currently life

reluctantly to go out and have any activities

my coursemate said this semester will be a critical semester for me,

since my CAP is not tat safe for 2nd upper .. @@

should spend more time to study

i also wish to

But, can i really concentrate myself and be a bookworm ???

CNY is approaching and I am happy with that

my eldest sister is coming back for holidays

yeah, always looking forward to the moments that whole family gather tgt

and KK's sister is finally coming back to continue her career here

glad to hear that and I really hope that they two can be good partner

help each other and develop the company well

i m confident with him and her ... ^^

coughing non-stop recently....

more n more reluctant to go practice .. erm i m so BAD!!!!!!!!!!

o, wednesday is coming, deardear finally can get his PR IC tmr ...

so happy with that, congratulations ....

free and easy

i am still adopting a free and easy lifestyle 

even though the assignments and projects are getting around 

this semester, we will have to do a project based on the topic "cytarabine" which i just signed up just now

chemistry people are really kiasu, the sign up period open from 1/2 9.00am

at 9.08am, most of the better topic are fulled .. @@ 

amazing, right 

or it is better to say we are KIASU 

yes, i think i am kiasu too ....

if not, why would i specially set alarm to 7.00am 

in order to grab the good topic 

on the first look on our project topic

i cannot explain why .. the first topic i googled was the "cytarabine"

it is an anti-cancer drug

specialized in curing leukemia ...

erm ~~~ is it fate ?

my po po died because of this .....

maybe it is determined by her to let me know more about this ....

@@.... we are just trying not to miss her so much ..

it is still painful when i think of that period ...

she was suffering, we were too.

my auntie said, she cannot stop her tears when she watched at the video of her son's wedding

because popo is in the video ...

erm, every year approaching to CNY

my mood will be swinging 

chu er is always the day i most look forward to ...

after popo has died, we still manage to gather around at tai yi there 

But actually i am not that willing to see SB

erm, sorry for being impolite 

just i couldnt forget those nighs

the night my popo died and the night my popo was finally back to the soil ...

cant remember when we took this family photos ... 

i look rather chubby and ugly in this 

but i love this 

lack of motivation

5 modules

this is the first semester for me free from the labs ...

i dun even bring back my lab coat and googles from JB ...

and i guess this is the right time to buy me a new googles as mine old one (the one which has accompanied me for 3 years) are really really blurred... full of scratches and dirts on it ...

kinda disgusting right ... @@

should be quite a free and relaxing semester ....

but THIS IS NOT THE CASE ....

busy for 3 weeks .. I am not too sure what i have been busying for ???????????????????

time flies really really fast .. haiz ..

my year 3 is going to end and what is waiting for me in the future ??

honours , graduation , jobs ?????

i am really lost, lose of motivation to study , no mood to practise ....

i dun really wish to go practise now !!!!!!!!!!

i dun wanna perform !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i dun wan the a-pac

i dun wan dun wan dun wan ......

nth triggered my hapiness and curiosity recently ....

except jiejie n zhangyou' wedding ....

so sorry deardear... due to the super traffic jam, my tone was really bad when talking with u in the phone ...

damn tired when i reached home la....

but i felt lucky i still went down to zhangyou's house at the end ...

it is really an awesome wedding and i m looking forward to mine also ....

but.. haha u must still remember what i confide to you during n after the dinner ....

/hehe/shy

shopping

just went for shopping with yeeting, liyong and weisheng yesterday night

it was really an amazing trip and we spent around 5 hours in the 4 floors forever 21 !!!

unbelievable right, weisheng also thought that we were already out of control at that time ~~~

we spent 1 hour ++ at the accessories section.. end's up with two ~ three necklaces and 1 ear rings..

but i din manage to get one for me at first ... but did during the second trip to there after dinner @@

after tat, i think i went into fitting room around 6 times @@ ....

kept q-ing and trying all those tube dresses

i must be crazy haha 

anyway ... i m spending again !!!!

got to save more in the following days ...

Happy Birthday to you

 

nothing much to say ....

and say much of the things in the inbox msg..

check it !!

siewmay...

you are always the sun surrounding us

bring us happy and laughters ..

happy birthday to you ...

and

I LOVE YOU ...

not only you

I love yeeting, ruyun, and aijia

miss the days we are together ...

miss those crazy shopping trips...

miss the tears happened among us ...

miss everything ....

brand new semester

just coming back from JB
and there is really nth for me to do now...
so, i decide to write a blog.....

erm, year 3 second semester starting soon, in less than 24 hours ...
my mood is still indulging in the holidays....
unbelievably, i start to feel headache after i have finished tidying my room ...

isnt is a sign of the coming stressful semester?
got a C in the core module during my last semester...
this is my first C in NUS, and i am pretty sure, this will be the last also.... /determined

my new semester resolution:
do revision every day !!!!
practise harmonica !!!

go to bed by 12am and wake up by 8am.... /praying so hard !

recently

it has been super long time since my last entry....

nth special happened recently

and I am just lazy to update

holiday ends in two days....

new semester starts soon

yl has gone to canada for his student exchange program

and yt is going to czech soon.....

hope that I will not be that lonely as I think

at least sanmei, sanying n xinjie will be back from france soon !!!!!

will not be scared and helpless if I cannot understand lectures....

although they arent my best friendss...

just feel happy and calm when tgt with them

human-beings shouldn't live alone....

that is what I realized after KK graduated from NUS and be back to JB for his career

I have been diving for super long time in AMCISA

it is quite weird and ippropriate for me to join in again

i feel... dun even know 1 freshie.... haiz

back from australia

I am so happy and relaxed when in overseas ....

erm, photos say about the trip

FUN ....

I think i am addicted to travelling ....

browsed singapore airline yesterday afternoon.....

need around 5k ringgit if I want to fly to london ... @@

damn expensive wey !!!!

mayb travel to some nearer places ? like bangkok ?

I wish I wish ......

sth happens in my FRIENDS society ....

I know that is my problem...

but it just let me realize that I am not that playful and generous....

not that suitable in that circle....

it should be the time to let me think throughly .... about this ....