lack of motivation

5 modules

this is the first semester for me free from the labs ...

i dun even bring back my lab coat and googles from JB ...

and i guess this is the right time to buy me a new googles as mine old one (the one which has accompanied me for 3 years) are really really blurred... full of scratches and dirts on it ...

kinda disgusting right ... @@

should be quite a free and relaxing semester ....

but THIS IS NOT THE CASE ....

busy for 3 weeks .. I am not too sure what i have been busying for ???????????????????

time flies really really fast .. haiz ..

my year 3 is going to end and what is waiting for me in the future ??

honours , graduation , jobs ?????

i am really lost, lose of motivation to study , no mood to practise ....

i dun really wish to go practise now !!!!!!!!!!

i dun wanna perform !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i dun wan the a-pac

i dun wan dun wan dun wan ......

nth triggered my hapiness and curiosity recently ....

except jiejie n zhangyou' wedding ....

so sorry deardear... due to the super traffic jam, my tone was really bad when talking with u in the phone ...

damn tired when i reached home la....

but i felt lucky i still went down to zhangyou's house at the end ...

it is really an awesome wedding and i m looking forward to mine also ....

but.. haha u must still remember what i confide to you during n after the dinner ....

/hehe/shy

shopping

just went for shopping with yeeting, liyong and weisheng yesterday night

it was really an amazing trip and we spent around 5 hours in the 4 floors forever 21 !!!

unbelievable right, weisheng also thought that we were already out of control at that time ~~~

we spent 1 hour ++ at the accessories section.. end's up with two ~ three necklaces and 1 ear rings..

but i din manage to get one for me at first ... but did during the second trip to there after dinner @@

after tat, i think i went into fitting room around 6 times @@ ....

kept q-ing and trying all those tube dresses

i must be crazy haha 

anyway ... i m spending again !!!!

got to save more in the following days ...

Happy Birthday to you

 

nothing much to say ....

and say much of the things in the inbox msg..

check it !!

siewmay...

you are always the sun surrounding us

bring us happy and laughters ..

happy birthday to you ...

and

I LOVE YOU ...

not only you

I love yeeting, ruyun, and aijia

miss the days we are together ...

miss those crazy shopping trips...

miss the tears happened among us ...

miss everything ....

brand new semester

just coming back from JB
and there is really nth for me to do now...
so, i decide to write a blog.....

erm, year 3 second semester starting soon, in less than 24 hours ...
my mood is still indulging in the holidays....
unbelievably, i start to feel headache after i have finished tidying my room ...

isnt is a sign of the coming stressful semester?
got a C in the core module during my last semester...
this is my first C in NUS, and i am pretty sure, this will be the last also.... /determined

my new semester resolution:
do revision every day !!!!
practise harmonica !!!

go to bed by 12am and wake up by 8am.... /praying so hard !

recently

it has been super long time since my last entry....

nth special happened recently

and I am just lazy to update

holiday ends in two days....

new semester starts soon

yl has gone to canada for his student exchange program

and yt is going to czech soon.....

hope that I will not be that lonely as I think

at least sanmei, sanying n xinjie will be back from france soon !!!!!

will not be scared and helpless if I cannot understand lectures....

although they arent my best friendss...

just feel happy and calm when tgt with them

human-beings shouldn't live alone....

that is what I realized after KK graduated from NUS and be back to JB for his career

I have been diving for super long time in AMCISA

it is quite weird and ippropriate for me to join in again

i feel... dun even know 1 freshie.... haiz

back from australia

I am so happy and relaxed when in overseas ....

erm, photos say about the trip

FUN ....

I think i am addicted to travelling ....

browsed singapore airline yesterday afternoon.....

need around 5k ringgit if I want to fly to london ... @@

damn expensive wey !!!!

mayb travel to some nearer places ? like bangkok ?

I wish I wish ......

sth happens in my FRIENDS society ....

I know that is my problem...

but it just let me realize that I am not that playful and generous....

not that suitable in that circle....

it should be the time to let me think throughly .... about this ....

emo again after watching drama

since there are two interesting HK drama launching,
everyday, i will spend around 1 and half hour to watch these two dramas
as an entertainment for my stressful life ....

But, now I found that I will not feel relieved after watching the dramas
because they are all talking about competition and tricks between people
Gong Xin Ji is talking about the competition between girls
They try everything and plan all tricks in order to be successful, to grab the higher power

It seems that those tricks will only appear in the drama, not in the real life
is it really like this ?
During our daily life, we also try our best,
in order not to be sacrifized / we study hard to get good results in the exam
to get a good class in our honour degree

IT IS ALL ABOUT COMPETITION ......

feel so horrible and frightened by the way they did to get what they want

I hope I can be simple-minded always even in the more complicated society in the future
I wish to win ... But maybe in a more honest way ....

stressed stressed stressed

I should have started to feel stressed at this moment,
3 early "finals" next week @@
But, it is just so reluctant for me to really concentrate on study
easily distracted by laptop,
i do think about just bring books / notes to study room
/think, so far away from my laptop ...
it should be more efficient ??? /think

anyway,
I am going home tomorrow..
bringing all those books back
I dun believe that I cant study at home
Must try my best, as I miss my family, and I am sick of the food in sch
wish to go back, at home, I don's have to worry about what to eat
worry about the price

do some shoppings recently, so I am now saving money
how do i save money ?
well, I just spend less than 2 dollars every day
sometimes, will be more, if I order western food for my early dinner (which is around 5pm)

can keep fit also .....
i wan money, and i wan slim body !!!!!!!!!!


fight fight fight .. back to my understanding the universe ....
i love the universe ...